I’ve been thinking a little about changing a few things in my life.
That would mean pulling out (I’m thinking almost entirely) of something that I’ve been involved in for a long time. That would also mean removing things like msn from my computer.
It has been a long time since I’ve had a lot of time to myself. It’s funny because the whole busy thing really does sneak up on you. I can often gauge how much time I’ve given myself just to relax or to think by what I’m reading – or rather, not reading. I haven’t read a novel in at least a month, it’s oddly a pretty common self-warning bell. The state my room is another guage – at the moment it looks like a small tractor has torn it up. The state of my mind – which isn’t working at all very well. I’m finding it hugely difficult to concentrate properly on things that I’d like to be able to take in – some of the fantastic theological blogs out there would be well worth devoting some time to. It seems pretty small, but when you open them, sit there, look at it, want to read it and just can’t, it’s no fun.
I want to pour new things into my brain, but it’s thoroughly convoluted and there’s no room.
The whole it being a selfish thing to ‘take time out for myself’ deal doesn’t worry me anymore . You can’t keep going well in life if you don’t take time to recharge.
I’ve done some things far too long and my enthusiasm (what there is of it) has really bottomed out.
I’m doing some new things, like youth. I’m really liking it and I want to put much more into it but where things stand at the moment my efforts feel like they are being spread too widely and therefore I’m not properly useful anywhere.
Time for some change. Or at least to start think seriously about implementing some.