Back state

The days seem to procure dramatically different reactions. Yesterday I had quite a few good (or messy) reasons to be not so impressed with myself and yet it was superb in straightening some things out. I did, (as you checked Monica) take some time out for myself which was very important in clarifying a few things and finding God absolutely all over that. The God stuff is on the improve – if you can claim that?

Today uni cast it’s ugly shaddow yet again. I am frustrated at being sort of-perfectly okay with what I’m doing one day and totally fed up with it the next. I don’t exactly want to give you another gloomy blog post again, but hmm it’s a bit of the reality at the moment (not everything of course but hey).

The problems I have with back/neck/shoulders are usually fairly subtle, so much that I think I’m just used to it never being quite right and only after a longish day or excessive hours of having to use the computer do they really hurt, but coming home today was pretty bad and still is. It’s reached a point where I’m trying to work out why I’m so ‘Blah’ so often and I think it’s got a lot to do with it. I went to the lake for a little bit after getting back to my car because I needed to walk or move/stretch a bit or something. It’s a beautiful day out there! I really should get my back checked it’s no longer pleasant. Oh… and if you ever want to give me a massage?

I had afternoon tea with Sam who was in a very silly/funny/hilarious mood. She gave me a present! The Garden State dvd. I am very happy as it was on my list (which doesn’t really exist) of the movies I want to own. Thanks Sam! If I wasn’t going out tonight, I stay home and watch it in my beautifully clean room where I can actually sit on the bean bag again.

My blogs are spacing out to one day on, one day off… their content isn’t so much improving. A small cause – which is excellent for me but maybe not so good for you (as a an all said and done reader) is that I’ve started journalling again. Wish me well in my endeavours, but do give me a prod to put something new in here now and then.

5 Comments

  1. said:

    I think i have a better pattern than you at the moment. One month off, one month off.

    Also, I think you spelt Sam’s blog address wrong. Unless you did travel to America this afternoon.

    August 30, 2006
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  2. said:

    You will have to come get a proper massage off me sometime Bec. Maybe AFTER we have met 😛

    August 30, 2006
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  3. said:

    you are very correct ojo.

    my blog address is up there in the links if anyone is dying to know what i write about, or indeed, who i am…

    August 30, 2006
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  4. said:

    hey bec, ever thought that begged massages from people who don’t know what they’re doing might actually be making your back worse? You should go to the physio or something.

    Love your concerned older sister.

    August 30, 2006
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  5. said:

    I often have the same problem with journaling and blogging. i want to do both, but you just cant. 😛 one day off one day on sounds good.

    August 31, 2006
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