I was finishing up dishes from what I’ve dubbed the stinky pasta meal – it was seriously not nice, I hope Mum doesn’t make it again, maybe I should’ve said something, and Laura comes out and starts asking me to watch some medical show on TV with her at 10pm. I said, “Um, maybe no” and she did one of her mock crankies and stamped around tantrum like, “Why do you have to be so self disciplined!” It was quite funny (Had my head in the fridge by then) and was laughing at her. That same head, slowed down by the scientifics of anti-heat induced royalty (google: toast king now) is saying, haha yeah right, you’ll go in your room Bec and waste those hours on msn, blogging or doing other such things. It was however a strange thing to hear come out of my sisters mouth. She is perhaps more observant than I thought.

Its quite strange the impressions you slowly gather of yourself. I honestly don’t really know how I come across to people. (Subtle hint for you to tell me sometime)

Several situations lately have entirely surprised me. The other night when I was with the Jess’s (not Jess Rae) I felt old. Okay it’s not hard really to feel mature around them as well… but I felt totally alien from them and three billion times more at home when Jess and Belle showed up, despite knowing Jess C reasonably well. It’s brilliant to hang around people your age (maturity/mentally). That sounds really quite nasty and I don’t intend it to, hope you slightly understand what I’m getting at. How miss being challenged, made to think by someone other than myself or some text I read somewhere. As to self impression I guess it was this shot of, “Wow maybe Bec (laugh here) is quite competent of doing the whole adult thing.”

I have often set myself up, been set up to be this introverted, shy blah etc. who has trouble saying anything when I have nothing to say which is a lot of the time as part of me doesn’t understand the phenomenon of small talk. There are certain situations where I totally do not care. This has got a lot to do with control, I’m fairly sure of it. So at uni next week I do not think I will find it too much of a hassle socially. Sure I’ll probably get the new blues once or twice, but everyone else is on this same footing. I introduced myself with very minimal qualms today to a girl doing *BIM didn’t have much time, but yeah it was fine. Thats not to say some people aren’t more intimidating than others. But contrast that with church stuff where there established understandings of who is friends with whom (so it seems) I slide into my box where I can critique in my own brain and find it SO much effort to do the, “Hi, I don’t know you, you don’t know me.” thing. I really really like the feel of uni. 😉 ask me that again in a couple of weeks when I start having to do work.

I think sometimes I’m quite strange. There’s a huge quirk streak in me, that comes out particularly when I’m alone (and probably when I’m around other people). I was in the backyard after walking Job and see this bit of wood that looks like giraffe legs, I snapped it and made it have a head which was a bit too long so it morphed into this Crocodile with a giraffe neck and legs. I amuse myself far too easily. After that I dropped it on the ground and it broke.

It’s almost 10pm now, I might go watch with Laura afterall, then again…

*Bachelor of Interactive Media shall now be refered to as BIM as it saves a fair bit of finger usage and they call it that anyway. Bec the BIM student… might take off. Hannah dubbed me, “She of the glasses” the other day. I’ve always come to the conclusion that nicknames need to be shorter than your actual name for them to ever take off properly. Rebecca is good but Bec is easier.


Well I’m in a grumpy mood from having rather yuck dinner and Hannah doing her best to talk over me (she got yelled at… not so much by me!) and I’ve got the “I’ve been out far too long today” feeling or something then see blogline has a record 61 entries listed. Most of which turn out to be things I’ve seen before – stupid Bloglines. I also find a quiz on Anthony’s blog so to suit the ‘meh’ mood I’ll do another quiz.

1. Honestly, are you happy right now? no I just said I’m a grump. But uni made me happy today and I’m starting to get minorly excited about it all.
2. Honestly, what color is your underwear? uh… aqua
3. Honestly, whats on your mind right now? why should I say my underwear colour online how stupid. *Got to walk the dog.
4. Honestly, what are you doing right now? writing a blog thinking about shower and other stuff to do… oh dear that’s the dog I forgot to walk him again. guess I’d better go do that* (*see above)
5. Honestly, what did you do today? Uni day Oweek. Wasted so much time in so many ways. Saw Syriana with Jess.
6. Honestly, do you think you are attractive? Sometimes I’m alright.
7. Honestly, have you done something bad today? Does not pay for a parking ticket count? (we didn’t get caught)
8. Honestly, do you watch disney channel? yeah right. pay TV in my house!
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? No
10. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? People, strange movies that make me think, little things that I notice (and take my fancy) most that others don’t observe, a good book, deep conversations that aren’t around someone’s messed up life or problems (although they can be good).
11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? Yes.
12. Honestly, what is your mood right now? grumpy/lazy I don’t want to walk the dog but I feel sorry for him so I probably will.
13. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? No
14. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute? No actualy sleep would be nice, alone time would be nice right about now.
15. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret? dont’t think so
16. Honestly, do you hate someone right now? No
17. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now? Not currently in a huggy mood, if so It’d have to be a passive one as I haven’t got a lot of energy – that a cop out?
18. Honestly, are you loyal? Yes
19. Honestly are you in denial? No no!
20. Honestly, wouldn’t you rather be having sex right now? Considering I’m not in a huggy mood, or a people mood right now…
21. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol? yes
22. Honestly, do you like someone? Lots of people. and as to the ‘thats not an answer’ it is: I don’t know.
23. Honestly, does anyone like you? Maybe. I can’t read minds.
24. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them? Who’s them? Let me know and I might let you know.
25. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly? yes

1. Person that slept in bed beside you? Ummmm in another bed, but sam I think, when were were camping
2. Saw you cry? Usually only God. Otherwise probably midyear camp then that would’ve been the majority of yitsers. Definitely cried since then though.
4. You went to the mall with? Jess W
5. You went out to dinner with? Jess W
6. You talked on the phone? Laura (“I’ll be home by 6ish”)
7. Broke your heart? N/A
8. Made you laugh? Jess W

1. Pierce your nose or tongue? nose – had the thought to the other week but haven’t gone with it yet.
2. Be serious or be funny? Both. Funny would be handy sometimes as I’m far more serious
3. Drink whole or skim milk? whole. skim milk is white water. Light milk is fine, but skim is DISGUSTING
4. Die in a fire or drown? fire
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? parentals

1. Simple or complicated? Complicated
2. Gay? no
3. Hardcore? Nah

1. Flowers or candy? Flowers (unless candy uncludes things like Ferro Rochers or the white ones then it becomes a HARD choice)
2. Gray or black? Black
3. Color or Black and white photos? both
5. Sunrise or sunset? if I saw the whole sunrise from a clear/beautiful spot, then that.
6. M&Ms or Skittles? M&M’s and Red/Orange skittles
8. Staying up late or waking up early? Late

1. Do you like anyone? I do not know, which basically means No.
2. Do they know it? *see above

1. Sun or moon? Moon
2. Winter or Autumn? Autumn, the birthday month, besides temperature is warmer and you get fantastic colours
3. Left or right? right
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? 9 acquaintances and 1 best friend
5. Sun or rain? Rain (but not always)
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? chocolate all the way, unless with desert stuff… bring on gelati I mean really what kind of choice is that?
7. Boys or girls? Boys

1. What time is it? 6:43pm “woof woof walk me bec please walk me!”
2. Name? Rebecca Claire B
3. Nickname(s): Bec, Bee, Becca/Becky (thanks’ lovelys), B___ (last name)
4. Where were you born? Kew
5. What is your birthdate? 4-4-86
6. What do you want? God, Mr. Right, Sleep, No work tomorrow, A car, Photoshop…
7. Where do you want to live?

1. Nervous Habits? biting nails, fiddling with things like cups (but thats more a boredom/thinking habit), playing w/ hair or shoulder…. I think I just have habits not all nervous ones.
2. Are you double jointed? my tongue
3. Can you roll your tongue? yes
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? no
5. Can you cross your eyes? Yes
6. Do you make your bed daily? this question sounds familiar. If I have time.

1. Which shoe goes on first? Whichever I find first
2. Ever thrown something at someone? Yeah
3. On average how much money do you carry with you? $40-$60
4. What jewelry do you wear? Earings

1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? hmmm. cut probably
2. Have you ever eaten Spam? Yes. In the Solomons you call it MahLing. It’s actually really good fried.
3. Favourite ice cream: pink grapefruit gelati – rare and far between, otherwise, Pistachio is pretty good.
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? a few kinds, I don’t really eat it though too many off milk experiences
5. What’s your favourite beverage? Orange Juice WITH pulp, Coffee
7. Do you cook? Sometimes. I get bagged everytime I do. but I can actually cook not too badly when I’m in an attention paying frame of mind.

—10 Firsts—
First Best Friend:: hmm. Lucy Rentz
First Screenname:: Bee
First Pet Name:: um Punky/Terminator (both guinea pigs)
First Piercing:: one of my ears
First Crush:: honestly don’t know. probably Cory the little kid I hung out with one of the primary schools I went to.
First CD: oooh um. something by Michelle Tumes I think – how embarassing, I bet I have it somewhere
First School:: Kangaroo Ground Primary School
First House Location:: A flat at BCV (Bible College Victoria), Honiara, Solomon Islands (that we owned)
First Kiss:: Ask me when I’m old and grey. Hasn’t yet happened.
First Car:: Soon

—9 Lasts—
Last Time You Smoked:: not smoked. Smoking is disgusting I am vocal about it and make the point of moving if someone comes in the train having just smoked.
Last Food You Ate:: disgusting meat stuff. bit of last nights salad was dinner’s redeeming feature :S
Last Car Ride:: with Jess W
Last Movie You Watched:: Syriana
Last Phone Call:: I just said that! Home.
Last CD You Listened To:: Um. believe it or not, the Bride and Prejudice sound track. It nearly drove me insane but as Jess was driving, it was her right. Gag Gag Gag to Bollywood music.
Last Bubble Bath You Took:: quite a while ago now, might tonight though… hmm better walk that dog.
Last Song You Listened To:: some Sixpence something sibling had on at home. I turned it off.
Last Words You Said:: Probably ‘Quiet!’ to that dog of mine 🙂 lovely Job.

–8 Have-You-Evers—
Dated A Best Friend:: Dated? What’s that?
Been Arrested:: I bet I have playing dressups when I was younger.
Been On TV:: um. no
Eaten Sushi:: tried it once upon a time
Cheated On Your B/F or G/F:: which one 😛
Been On A Blind Date:: No
Been Out Of The Country:: Yes
Been In Love:: dont’ think so

—7 Things You Are Wearing—
1:: Jeans
2:: singlet top
3:: Blue tshirt thing
4:: underwear
5:: bra
6:: earings
7:: deodarant (probably all gone now :P) hooray made it to 7!

—6 Things You’ve Done Today—
1:: Got free breakfast
2:: Library ‘tour’ waste of time
3:: Intro Lecture for multiple subjects, waste of time
4:: Bought a textbook
5:: Saw a movie – Syriana
6:: Wandered aimlessly around Knox for a while

—5 Favourite Things (not in any order)—
1:: People
2:: Internet/Gush/Blogger/Msn (love hate relationship with msn)
3:: Lenses ie: Camera and glasses (glasses help me see)
4:: Books
5:: God

—People You Most Trust (in no order)—
Family (I suppose)
God – but he probably doesn’t count so much as a person
Certain friends

—2 Choices—
Vanilla or Chocolate:: chocolate
Hugs or Kisses:: bit hard to differentiate when you haven’t had the ‘kiss’ thing. But I’m guessing hugs – from what I hear 😛

–1 Person You Want To See Right Now—
1:: No one thanks. Now is people free zone.