I blogged last night, instead of pen to paper it was fingers to keys. Mentioned my frustrations over isolating the extraverst to get a decent converastion with them and I guess the added difficulty of getting to know the really intro-verts (sic) (Looking back I did not quite elaborate that much on what was going on in my head, but yes).
Surprised again at the way God does stuff. To quote this morning: “Huzzah!”
Lunch time CAF duty, the bit of the day I was sincerely not overly thrilled about. Dishes, dishes. After serving and stuff, people lessened so Michael (probably the most extraverted yits person – and sorry Im going to use the extro/intro thing a lot in this)was helping dry. I internally laughed and thought, hey, here’s an example of, well opportunity where one of them (foreign species aka loud people) is actually there to talk. Ended up having a fairly good – bordering on deep conversation. Was excellent.
This evening, had dinner and stuff so hanging round before 6:30 Youth Ministry class. Went into Basketball ring, a few of the others were there. Anyway, Iain and Amy S were bashing around in Iain’s b-ball wheelchairs, Tracey watching and Darryn, Jessmyn and myself ‘shooting (missing) hoops’. Darryn would be the most introverted (see there I go again) and Jessmyn close behind. Darryn out of the blue asks about church and stuff, so went on about that for a while. I was fairly surprised. I have had decent conv’s with him before but silence is the common ground.
Later Jessmyn got talking about her frustrations of not being more ‘out there’ as she really ‘is’. Ha, sounds familiar. Darryn was in on that too.
Ah God has a brilliant way of making relevant things happen.
Youth Min was fantastic yet again. I love Wednesdays!
Matt 6:19-34 (MSG)
19″Don’t hoard treasure down here where it gets eaten by moths and corroded by rust or–worse!-stolen by burglars. 20Stockpile treasure in heaven, where it’s safe from moth and rust and burglars. 21It’s obvious, isn’t it? The place where your treasure is, is the place you will most want to be, and end up being…
…24″You can’t worship two gods at once. Loving one god, you’ll end up hating the other. Adoration of one feeds contempt for the other. You can’t worship God and Money both.
25″If you decide for God, living a life of God-worship, it follows that you don’t fuss about what’s on the table at mealtimes or whether the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body. 26Look at the birds, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds.
27″Has anyone by fussing in front of the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch? 28All this time and money wasted on fashion–do you think it makes that much difference? Instead of looking at the fashions, walk out into the fields and look at the wildflowers. They never primp or shop, 29but have you ever seen color and design quite like it? The ten best–dressed men and women in the country look shabby alongside them.
30″If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers–most of which are never even seen–don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? 31What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. 32People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. 33Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.
34“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.
God talking to me about the immediate: living in the now. Taking risks – trusting Him.
Enjoying Him and stop my ‘better self initiative’ because God has all the initiative. I am not going to miss out if I let him do the work instead of me.
Lots more to process and not the time now.
So, got home today after a church based conversation with Darryn, a ‘what’s next in life’ conversation with Michael, and a Jess major vent in the car about a (certain church) and wanting a house church/similar style. I challenged her on, what about starting one up (she said she’d want to do it w/ someone else) I didn’t think much more of it.
Home, shower (what is it about them that makes you think more?). I think I was looking in the mirror and I remembered something Janice H said to me about what she could see me doing…. (part omitted)
Then conversations semi clicked…
(not sharing atm)
But lets say I had an experience where my head (and/or God) redefined where I am headed, as in: no uni course as planned etc… which had me tripping out big time.
Worth recording, but I need to pray/think etc about stuff a lot more.
Amy S told me today how Jess D is not big on church any more and is still really grieving her nan’s death. It’s shameful, this is probably my best friend and I hardly take the time to find out what’s going on in herelife. Intend to catch up with her ASAP. Sunday afternoon? And hope to be brave enough to ask some hard questions. (Pray for this please, a) that it will happen if that’s what God wants, and b) that we’ll actually talk and get down to real stuff going on and that I’ll know what to say)
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