put in blog 13/6/05, written 12/6/05
A pity that a lot of this weekendâ€™s conversations have come back to church and the multiple issues associated with that. A fantastic day nonetheless but I had to shove what I heard this morning aside and have left it until now to consider it further.
Gut reaction. I have heard far more than I wanted to hear. Know possibly what I shouldnâ€™t and am not entirely or at all glad to know it. Breakfast. Got talking to Long Van. It is curious when you are faced with a slightly different facet of the WPC story. An angle you arenâ€™t entirely agreed upon, yet have to hear out. So she isnâ€™t entirely satisfied with Geoff. Not quite up to â€˜Keithâ€™ standards. I think that is expecting too much. Not everyone is gifted with â€˜pastoral careâ€™. Pastors can operated effectively without a strong passion in that arena. Her concern was for the elderly people â€˜that he hasnâ€™t fully accommodated for themâ€™. There may well be some aspects. Pleased she isnâ€™t outright attacking him lets me question where Mark stands on this wants me to have a fuller picture of what dad thinks. No doubt, Geoff is a quality guy.
My disquiet is not with that, instead far more on that she gave me the undisclosed information that Age has resigned (now disclosed/public). More than that, that she mentioned something about ….(removed)… Angry. She shouldnâ€™t be talking about that. I donâ€™t want to hear that, that is their business. She should know better, (removed). Unfortunate, but my respect for Long Van dropped a fair bit. You could pin the word â€˜malicious gossipâ€™ on it, which might be naming it a little harshly, maybe not. I was not impressed.
Ah God. Why is it so hard, it hurts to hear this stuff. Theyâ€™re calling a church meeting. That was the â€˜last resortâ€™ a week ago. Invite chaos to take reign. I donâ€™t want to be there.
Today. Aside from all the issues I managed to sideline. Conference session/s were interesting, a lot around the budget, pushing things forward.
The most interesting thing has been observing people, their relationships with their spouse/partner and their kids. I really do work with some amazing people.
I find Prableen and Harpreet an interesting couple. Time to observe an arranged marriage in itâ€™s early throws. She canâ€™t be more than a few years older than me. 22 maybe. What would it be like? Oh I wouldnâ€™t want it. Prableen, I donâ€™t know what to think. She looked lonely at one point; she obviously loves, or is â€˜learningâ€™ to love himâ€¦ I guess you see her looking for response, which doesnâ€™t always come.
Jo and Hugh. They have such fun. Rachel and Phil. How I like seeing how that works. Rach is alive. Paul and Ange, how he left an apple (just secretly) at her spot on the tableâ€¦ she ate it completely unaware. Ian and Anne, her words make up for his silence. (:) Ian’s great)
Canâ€™t say this hasnâ€™t had me thinking about relationships. Because it has. Bad move in some ways, lonely. Well God. Interesting how the desire for a â€˜oneâ€™ gets stronger, beyond just the factor of having a relationship. I guess I havenâ€™t had much of an opportunity to watch young families interact (not since I was too young to care), interesting what you can glean from a bystander perspective.
Team sports. Finally the â€˜Round Robinâ€™ came about effectively. Great fun! Green team. Scavenger hunt, fishing, volleyball rallies, bikes, croquet, the pool.
Only team that caught a fish. Not bad for 20mins. Chris got it, right as we were about to go. I succeeded in loosing the reel handle off my rod â€“ I have no idea how. I looked down and it was just not there.
Dinner. Not as heavy as last night. Still huge. Three courses. Three hours (or thereabouts). Gnocchi entrÃ©e thing however was a little strange. Nice though. Chicken main, with capsicum sauce, apple/berry crumble for desert; possibly the better menu. Bek and I sat with the â€˜olderâ€™ kids. Zac D, Zac B, Heidi, Joshua, Levi and Rachel. They soon left.
Dinner over. Bek and I managed to find DVD of Finding Neverland and took it back to the room. I love that movie. Not a clichÃ©d ending. Moves me. Seen it once before â€“ at the movies.
Big day God. A lot you need to have a lot of thought, a lot of want I am incapable to deal with on my own. More I need your help, to know youâ€™re there. More to know of your plan for my life. More to understand that direction lies with you and I cannot possibly have all the answers, nor is it appropriate.
God search me and know me. Know when I sit and when I rise, discern my thoughts. Know my going out and my coming in.
Know me. I want to know you more.