If you have keen eyes and aren’t fixated on your beloved RSS reader you’ll notice that I’ve added a new link into Other Blogs this means: you get to go find out a little bit more about my friend Tim (this is IT Tim, Timmit or Tim P). So far it’s been pretty interesting. And to save Scott wondering: this is another Vineyardian blogger. 😛
there… that’s a sufficient plug methinks.
It’s really really nice outside – windy and if it was warmer I’d be out there, but for the moment I haven’t even gotten out of my pj’s so as I just came across mandy’s blog (she being a gusher) I’ll pretend to be utterly facinated in these things because they’re: OH SO TRUE:
You are Ocean Blue
You’re both warm and practical. You’re very driven, but you’re also very well rounded.
You tend to see both sides to every issue, and people consider you a natural diplomat.What Color Blue Are You?
You Are Crimson Red
Down to earth and warm-hearted, you instantly make everyone feel at ease around you.
And while you have an understated passion – you lack the uncontrolled passion of most other reds.
You prefer to sit back and enjoy every situation life has to offer. You put an optimistic spin on everything.
And even when things are going well, you don’t get too amped up. You prefer to keep your emotions as steady as possible.
What Color Red Are You?
You Have a Choleric Temperament
You are a person of great enthusiasm – easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.
You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.
You’re an instantly passionate person – and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.
At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.
What Temperment Are You?
Your Blog Should Be Green
Your blog is smart and thoughtful – not a lot of fluff.
You enjoy a good discussion, especially if it involves picking apart ideas.
However, you tend to get easily annoyed by any thoughtless comments in your blog.
What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?
Your Personality Is
Rational (NT)
You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.
You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!
Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people.
In fact, you’re often a little short with people who don’t impress you mentally.
You seem distant to some – but it’s usually because you’re deep in thought.
Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.
In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate – who is also very intelligent.
At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers – like programming, medicine, or academia.
With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can’t take your criticism well.
As far as your looks go, you’re coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.
On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.
The Three Question Personality Test
And *snigger* my power colour is….
Your Power Color Is Lime Green
At Your Highest:
You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.
At Your Lowest:
You feel misunderstood, like you don’t fit in.
In Love:
You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.
How You’re Attractive:
Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.
Your Eternal Question:
“What else do I need in my life?”
What’s Your Power Color?
I totally do not agree with many of the above statements!
I’ve been thinking for quite a while about getting this started back. Haha, “It’s never all said and doneâ€. Here I am again. I do enjoy blogging and so have been racking my brains about how not to lose face in retracting ‘the semi absolute ending’ of the previous post. Who cares.
I have been on an interesting journey this past month, some very difficult ‘lessons’ to learn, some very important experiences to, um experience.
By continuing this, I need you to keep me accountable, which means if you see me: ‘loosing the plot’, getting self absorbed, sidelining the more important ‘time with God’, or just generally being obsessive like last time, talk to me (and quite strongly).
Embarrassing to admit but,
When I take a lot of photos for an extended period of time, my mind will focus pictures in my brain (it’s really a weird sensation)… likewise,
When I post too much, my mind begins to constantly write bloggings in my head. Sad sad girl.
If you don’t know what I’m blabbing on about, tell me to take time off if I get a bit too wrapped up in all.
It is way too easy to talk about yourself.
Introspective is good until it turns ugly and selfish.
Motives for blogging always confuse me and I’ve explored them and worried about them possibly too much. I would like my life to be ‘Open Book’ with well defined boundries. Whatever that means. Transparency is such a vague word.
I was ho-humming about whether to fill you in on some of the stuff that has happened. I have decided I definitely need to mention something about our YITS midyear camp as I think that I’ll allude to it a fair bit later on. Other than that, be patient, I’ll get there, and if I don’t, you’ll never know what you are missing. Backlogging posts = lots of typing. It’s all recorded, but on paper.
That’ll do.
Hello again 🙂
I know a little what it was like for Job. Estrangement from God is what we should fear most. Who cares about troubles, they are nothing. There is sorrow from the depths of your very being when God is not where he should be in your life. I have lost focus. I’ve changed considerably already this year.
On blogging. It was a challenge to open myself up to letting others in, but there are far better means. It’s time to stop for a significant while. To get back to what I used to have, which was a far better relationship with the one that matters most. I don’t know if I ever said but this journalling was originally between God and myself and it served a beautiful purpose. It lost that. There is a limit to what you should share with others and it is a very different thing when it is a relationship and not a selfish one sided attempt at improving something of yourself. It was liberating at first but I’d rather focus on others knowing me for who I am and let them discover that on their own.
In many ways my hesitation to share even the link was I guess a faint recognition of the above. I don’t regret sharing, not one bit. But opening one side of me this way has had an affect to an extent to the side I would much prefer to be in priority. I love you all and I don’t say that lightly. It would be nice sometime to open file on your lives but it’s not how we were designed.
God is one of the greatest mysteries of this life – if we only spent a bit more time trying to discover him than ourselves we’d be far better off. I wont stop writting, but I guess I’ve learned something important about boundries and how foolish it is to stretch them to see if they really exist.
We are mysteries to ourselves. That can only be a good thing.
There is a vast difference in living a transparent life and living an opaque imitiation. I hate tacky endings, but all the same, it is never all said and done.
[December 12, 2004 – On Random, First blog post]
“Who ever you are, this is but a little of who I am -I think I’d do well to remember that also.”