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Published June 18, 2005 by

Eighteenth of June 2005

so

how to describe.

or rather I don’t know if I want to, I’ve desensitised or tried to, or those well established emotional boundries kicked in, in full force.

church meeting.

needed to be done. uncomfortable, emotional people, a stand up and leave in protest after a speil (at the end) with a minority following, a time where I was standing in the line and swearing repeditively in my head b/c my mind had nothing else to do… that and talk to God. last looks at faces. I didn’t really properly say goodbye to anyone.

sitting next to Janice at the back away from sisters/mum (glad). eating skittles we grabbed on the way in. frustrated at how the thing went round in circles. glad I couldnt see faces when resignations were being read out.

“only way things can go are up”… church is not a building. wherever we end up God can use us. better than sitting around passively.

anyway. numb. hurt. annoyed. glad its over. hard to say goodbye. all that. more. haven’t had time to process properly I guess. dont’ want to right now.

Romans 8:28-39
Heb 12:2-3
Heb 12:14
2 Tim 2:23-26
Eph 4:14-21

aside from not crying all night. reading those did. thank you.

Church General

Published June 18, 2005 by

Shot

slept til 11:50am. I never do that.

Jess W was coming to pick me up at 11:45am (yes thats right). Told me the night before to be sure to be ready as I don’t want to have to come inside and get you. Thankfully she was late. Got here about 11:55 instead. In a good mood 😛 so she gave me a fraction longer.

Fall out of bed. find clothes somehow, find shoes, find water, fed the dog, grabbed an apple to eat in the car (for breakfast), money, phone, assignment to hand in. left.

Got talking on the way to Tabor and so missed the turn off on to Oban Rd (erm. yes we do go the same way every time) had to go the long way round. Handed in essays with half an hour to spare. I went looking for Rowan to get my USB stick back, but their offices were all locked up, will just have to wait for camp.

Drove to Eastland (that would be the shopping centre) to meet Alecia infront of Macca’s for lunch (infront, not at). Subway for me, some a little sorry looking pasta for Jess and Alecia (when she came).

Jess and I then went Camera shopping. Teds Camera House first (which I told Jess was overpriced) weren’t there long. Then to Kirks. Nice shop. Jess got asked what she was looking for, “a camera” (A and I gave her lots for that seeing the whole shop was devoted to them). I managed to talk Jess out of giving into the sales lady’s advice and to wait and look round a bit more. Saw the camera I found last night for $649 the rrp listed on the Nikon site. Too much.

Then dropped Alecia back at her car and we drove back to Croydon. Second shop, much bigger range. Jess found something better, cheaper and I made her ask/get a deal for everything else thrown in. There’s some of the dutch coming out.
Managed to find one myself.
Same camera as before. Nikon Coolpix 4800 was after at least 4mp. and more zoom. Surprisingly $100 cheaper. Ho hummed for a bit, got sales person to chuck a card in with it, cost a bit extra but not too much. Decided I might as well.

So 🙂 I have a camera. finally!

mucking around and took this of the flowers we had for hannah:

Went to Annie Get Your Gun tonight at school. Good way to spend an evening. Typical school production with varying levels of singing/acting ability. Overall pretty good. Hannah was great! Don’t know where those genes came from. Her only obvious blunder when she snaped her gun in half… and everyone laughing so hard she found hard to hear the music – but kept singing. She didn’t have trouble with lines, although a few did. Had seats in the middle but way up the back as Han forgot to book early. I was fortunate enough to have a little kid in front of me 😛


Hannah (aka Annie Oakley)

Fun evening, even though I did have an ‘oversleep’ headache.

caught up with Jaclyn (cousin) very good to see her again 🙂 Miss not seeing her now I’m not at school.


em, jaclyn, laura

And that is the end of the saga of my day. Thank you for listening if you got this far, if you didn’t I don’t blame you.

Goodnight.

General Life Photography

Published June 17, 2005 by

Whatever

Worth remembering.

earlier this evening I was doing a boost for the sibling (aka Hannah) in gush as she is Annie in Annie Get Your Gun tomorrow night in the school production. I was looking and looking for that verse that says: ‘do everything for God deal…’ I couldn’t remember exact wording and spent a bit of time scrounging searches on biblegateway and gave up. I normally don’t put verses in boosts but it came to mind.

Anyway. later. lots later. after I’d sort of forgotten. I open to where I left off reading last night (yeah evidence I’ve been doing reading). And was on Colossians 3:15-17.

v.17 “And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.”

Ah the irony. God makes me laugh sometimes.

but hey, in looking for the Haig’s: its the thought that counts.

(and I just broke a bec rule: do not say the ‘but hey’… hmm that hasn’t come up in awhile. Oh well I’ll just leave it.)

Dictionary:
Haigs/Hagar – Hannah (the littlest sister)

Word of the Day: intrinsic only becuase I had it on the tip of my tongue when I was writing the personal creed – wanted to use it (and I did) but it took one extensive search of the dictionary and varieties of spelling.

God is cool.

General Life

Published June 17, 2005 by

Close to Home (unabridged)

from 15/6/05

Went to missions trip info night for Owa language group. New Testament…or is it Bible dedictation. Thats Santa Ana (Island in the Solomons). I went basically to catch up with the Mellows and take my mind off everything else.

I amaze myself… am so comfortable with them its like quiet bec doesn’t exist. Was good to laugh, to remember together. Sisters weren’t there.

Personal Creed is done! Work tomorrow and after that, freedom! Time, it finally slows down enough for me to catch up, or in taking the metaphor more literally, to get off and forget it for awhile.

Church stuff, I have now a much fuller picture.

I was reading a book I found on the table this morning, skim read cover to cover.
Fractured Families: A Melbourne church cult (link to article from the Age)

Somewhat disturbing. Namely the last names of WPC people, of whom are causing much of the problems – Roe’s, Nicholls.

I guess just that it is/was prevalant in areas like Mont Albert, Surrey Hills… all places around where church is. They had a big problem with ‘the fellowship’ in Mt Evelyn. Did I take a step back when I read that name! And some of the founders or something were missionaries in the Solomons and stuff in the SSEC church. of which was one of the denomination/churches we 50:50 attended. Too close to home. weird. Book was written only last year. Brings stuff close to home, makes you wonder.

Mmm. so Church. I will pretty much have to go to Saturday’s meeting. Dad’s prediction of the situation, probably mass exodus (maybe not) 30-40 left. Interim pastor etc… they’ll run church their way for 10 or 15yrs then it will die out (they are prty much all older). I dare say it wont be a place to attract youth, families, growth for that matter. Then again God, I have no idea what you have in plan. Sad yes, but pleased its nearly all over.

Walsh’s had some retailiation meeting at their place tonight. Monty J was going to try tell them they are being ‘carnal’ in their approach to it all. It was going to be an attempt at forcing Geoff, dad… to leave. Dad Mark and Geoff sort of beat them to it, closed the umbrella before they got a chance – the letter about resignations went out today.

Hmm, God you know what’s going on.
Thankyou for being constant, unchanging.
For being a just God and a loving God.
Amen.

Church General Solomon Islands

Published June 15, 2005 by

Self – C.S. Lewis

Interesting quote that I don’t want to lose, so I’ll put it here.
Just a little foundational on what’s been going on in my head the past 12mths or so.
Trust C.S. Lewis to word it so nicely (from Mere Christianity) I sort of needed to hear it articulated again even although this is the first time I’ve read this.

“But there must be a real giving up of the self. You must throw it away
‘blindly’ to so speak. Christ will indeed give you a real personality: but you
must not go to Him for the sake of that. As long as your own personality is what
you are bothering about you are not going to Him at all. The very first step is
to try to forget about the self altogether. Your real, new self (which is
Christ’s and also yours, and yours just because it is His) will not come as long
as you are looking for it. It will come when you are looking for Him.”

Christianity General Words