I am really very glad this day is almost over.
I’m not one to get sick very often – although this year has already proved an exception to that. My throat is still sore although did disappear for a while. And to the people who think lemon and honey drinks solve the worlds problems (there have been several of you) – they don’t. I actually couldn’t think of much worse. I could bore you with the ins and outs of feeling pathetic but it wouldn’t do you much good.
I procrastinated all day. I slept for a sad short half an hour when I should’ve tried for more. I read a chapter or two of Perspectives and another fat wad of Running With Scissors unitl it started getting even more well, crude so I decided to give it rest. Its a pity so many memoirs have this exceedingly dark edge to them. It’s a different crude than A Million Little Pieces and a tad more along the lines of A Monk Swimming – no, different still. They are making a movie of it apparently, the censorship ratings if they follow the book’s detail are going to be through the roof. Sometimes I wonder why I draw the line far more loosely at books than I do with movies.
I felt a fair bit better after dinner, an interesting (alibet cheery) email (probably more to the fact that I was bemoaning that I never get enough emails – oh yes, self absorption was high on the agenda today) and a bath.
I mustered up the collective pits of procrastinaton and piled them ontop of one another and wrote my assignment proposal (or at least a semblance of one) in about 10 minutes. Which in actuallity should have me fuming that it cause so much heart (I mean mind) ache in consuming my day.
Things look vaguely more achievable now.
I like the book of Hebrews and was reading randomly from there tonight. The end of Chapter 12 has something I haven’t quite noticed before.
25See to it that you do not refuse him who speaks. If they did not escape when they refused him who warned them on earth, how much less will we, if we turn away from him who warns us from heaven? 26At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, “Once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens.”27The words “once more” indicate the removing of what can be shakenâ€”that is, created thingsâ€”so that what cannot be shaken may remain.
28Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, 29for our “God is a consuming fire.”
However much relevance it has to me I’m not sure, but what I want to know is, ‘what is it that cannot be shaken?’, what is going to remain?
Wow, wake up ignoramus… I read v.28 just then. So it seems it’s the kingdom (Kingdom of God?) that cannot be shaken.
This pulls me back again to that long wonderful semester last year of trying to define the KOG… The problem is, I now forget exactly all the things we came up with. I need to go over things.
Regardless of what exactly it is, this is pretty much saying you can’t beat it, it’s lasting. So shouldn’t we all the more work to play our part in bring it about? And yet, it says we are recieving it. We talk about the Kingdom of God being here, but not yet here. I forget (unfortunately where it talks about what part we get to play – unless thats just a derived set of conclusions from a number of texts.)
“Let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our “God is a consuming fire.”
Despite perhaps the ‘play your part as a good little Christian’ in bringing the KOG about, God’s going to do this stuff regardless of our effort (not saying we can be ‘lazy buggers’). So the important response? We should really be living thus: ‘thankful and worshiping God…’ A mandate for the Christian life perhaps?
Now what would that look like in practice?!
My head’s all over the place right now, but if you ever happen to run out of things to be thankful for (and I was getting that way today mulling my black mood of, ‘what am I doing with my life/sick blah/pointless pointless’) here it is.
We’re living in something that can’t be shaken (or at least all the bad bits will be shaken out) and there is still more good to come.
*disclaimer/appology for feeding you any shonky theology – afterall, “work out your salvation with fear and trembling” not someone else’s salvation for them with fear and trembling.
and that’ll be enough to send the she with touch of sarcam, wandering theology and the still sore throat to bed.